Ad Hoc Updates and Musings

Today's post is a hodge podge of things.

I had a great weekend.

I was super productive, even by my standards, to the point that I had my whole upper floor of the house vacuumed, dusted and bathroom scrubbed before I left for yoga at 10am.  After my 1:30hrs yoga class, I headed to the library to drop off some books.

It was a gorgeous morning and I found my way to a park by the lake. Tons of kids and families playing . Seeing all of them really tugged at my heart....I wished I had a child I could take there and play with on a warm Spring afternoon. Maybe someday....

After I came home I spent an hour and a half outside doing yard work - trimming bushes, dragging stuff, feeding fertilizer etc. Needless to say my salad lunch was a let down, but I did treat myself to a brownie :-)

I want to get the bulk of my Spring yardwork done before my potential transfer in md-end Apr so I am not lugging bags of mulch and potting soil all over the place. 

In the evening I finally got my 6 pictures into frames, and I cut out the sizes so I can play with how I want to hang them on the wall.

Sunday I was out all day and came home late afternoon to run some loads of laundry and tidy up. I still have piles of mail to go through....its never ending.

Today was very busy at work, I cannot believe how the day has flown by. I did not even get to exercise.

In order to give myself something, other than my upcoming cycle, to obsess over I am looking into re-financing my home. So, I made some calls to the mortgage consultant and have started getting some information.

Tomorrow I need to open up my meds and take stock of what is where, so I am ready to get started later this week.

I am still super zen about this upcoming cycle.

The one thing I am realizing is that I can still have a happy life without kids if that is what is in the cards for me. That thought is giving me a lot if peace.

That was my outlook when I started down TTC four+ years ago, but then I got caught up in everything and got practically obsessed. I think my aging eggs had a lot to do with the sense of desperation I had and this horrible feeling that my "time was running out".

But for now all negativitey is being put aside. I shall embark on my journey relaxed and hopeful and let the chips fall where they may.