The Day Before....

So, its the day before Beanie's arrival.

Wish I could say I am jumping up and down with excitement, but to be honest I am really tired. Think its a combination of physical and mental fatigue.

The wind has been whipping wildly for over 24+ hours and I don't like wind. It makes a racket, with trees swishing and things rattling and it makes me generally very nervous and unsettled. As a result, I did not sleep well last night. I can hear it a lot in my bedroom, especially since its comes up the corridor between the row of homes and makes sort of a weird sound. On some nights I have actually come down and slept on the couch.

Also, I am now having to sleep almost completely sitting up due to the reflux so that is getting uncomfortable too.

So, all in all just feeling more anxious, than excited at this point.

I have pretty much done everything I need to do and am packed and ready.

Funny story. I had requested my Dad to get me a bunch of batteries from the Dollar Store a while back since I am always running out.  Yesterday I put some in my camera so I have fresh batteries for the hospital.  I took some photos and the camera kept shutting off.  Finally I called my Dad and he reminded me that the dollar store batteries do not work on cameras only things like clocks/remotes etc. He got me regular batteries and voila, the camera works :-)

Yesterday was my last night alone at home. My Mom is spending tonight at my place.

It all seems very surreal as I sit here with the quiet of the house knowing that it will all change. I was talking to my parents about it when they came over for a short while. Sharing that it is all suddenly feeling very real and a bit daunting, to be honest.  I have been getting moments of "OMG -- what the heck am I doing here?"   They were really sweet and supportive and validated that its normal to feel that way about a big change in life.  My OB had said the same too - and I think most first time parents feel like that (I hope!).

Heck, at least I know what is coming tomorrow, poor Beanie is unaware that she will be making her debut and not be all warm and cozy in my womb for longer. She is ready to come out. I can sense it, she is very tight in there and is moving a lot during the day.

I did get approval to swallow a capful of Miralax at lunchtime to ensure that I have no um..blockage issues tomorrow and going forth. I was expecting a "bowel prep" as I had done for the fibroid surgery so it was a pleasant surprise.

Also, I have been allowed to eat something at 4am tomorrow, so I am not going 16+ hours without food which would be impossible for me. They only require 8 hours no food/drink.

So that is it, ladies. Thanks for all your love and support.

I do request that you keep me and Beanie in your thoughts and prayers tomorrow so we have a safe delivery and healthy delivery.

I will update you as soon as I am able. I don't have a smart phone, so it will have to be when I can access the laptop.