Letting go...

First of all, "Happy Canada Day" to my Canadian blog-friends :-)

On to other things...

My attitude this cycle is so different from last time when I was really zen and uber-relaxed. I think losses and setbacks really do mess with our heads making us remarkably paranoid each successive cycle.

This cycle my mind has been running in circles and I am thinking of back-up plans and 'what if" scenarios. It is all so unproductive that I have realized for my own sanity sake,  I really need to just let go.

None - repeat NONE -of this is in my control and the sooner I realize that the better.

So, I am going to try really hard to take one day at a time and try and regain some of the "que sera sera" attitude.

Because ultimately what is meant to happen will happen and getting into a tizzy is not going to help except the ruin the next several weeks.

Of course all this is easier said than done - but I will try.

On the plus side this cycle seems to be going so much faster than last cycle when each day dragged on and if you recall I was getting tired of the monotony of it.

I am also keeping myself busy so time passes faster. I had a nice weekend. Yoga class yesterday was awesome even though it was a sub and I went to the Farmer's market afterwards and walked around buying homemade soaps and organic peaches. Today I slept in and was an hour late with my Lupron shot (oh well!). Then I went up to the city and spent a day out with a friend, which was very nice.

I will be starting Estrace on Tue. Luckily, I have not yet had the body achiness that I had last cycle due to very low estrogen caused by Lupron. It went away after 1-2 days of starting the Estrace. But at least this time I can look out for it and not be wondering what was going on.

I expect it to be quiet at work this week due to the mid-week holiday.

Looking forward to July 4th!